do: you.

i really hate unnecessary group texts. i especially hate them when everybody attached replies all. i specifically hate when people i don't know are attached and then i gotta read dumb ass messages from people i don't know. fortunately, i have unlimited text. still, the world and how its becoming so detached is really eating at me. friendships throughout history have probably shifted and changed as the individuals who make them up shift and change, but it just seems like everyone is getting too comfortable in their own iPhone, facebook, instagram created bubbles. its part of the reason i do not blog as much. it also seems to me that "friendships" are more about networking and social mobility and being able to say "i know so-and -so" than really just appreciating another human being for being another imperfect human being.

i met this girl named tatiana at the drake concert [of all places] a couple weeks ago. she was sitting with her girls the row ahead of me and seemed bored. i struck up some nerve and we ended up talking through the middle part of drake's set when he was bullshitting, serenading groupies he was trying to get backstage. we had one of the freshest conversations i've had in the last two, three months. we ended up talking about our motivations and what our passions were and how/why they came to be our passions and how crazy popular culture is and the affects on society, on ourselves. drake turned it back up for the last portion of the set and our dialogue disconnected but it was just fresh to connect with someone, even if for a moment, without the facilitation of the internet. a goal for the year a few years ago was to try to cultivate more relationships/friendships more organically. i deleted my facebook page... then was sucked right back in by this feeling that i was missing out on shit.

i've had to once again detach myself from these new social norms to reconnect with myself and the things that i actually like and not the things that seem to make everyone else happy or popular. living vicariously through facebook post and hearing about what's going on with someone who's supposed to be your friend second and third hand from people who are also supposed to be their friends but who really are just hyper analytical behind your back shit talking type of folks just doesn't really suit me. like the roots track, it don't feel right. you get caught up in it. you start analyzing people you love and respect. you over analyze yourself. you lose love and respect for self. you exert so much energy trying not to miss out on shit that you end up missing out on shit. at least, that seemed to be my personal progression. it was becoming a situation that drained happiness and energy.

tatiana described herself as a "real person." and talked about how she "only fucks with real people." simplistic, you may think, if you over analyze it. i could tell she was searching for a better way, a better adjective to describe it. she paused and she thought. she stopped herself, realizing there was no other way she could explain it. i thought her simplicity was eloquent and thoughtful, precise.