open.

been trying to let go.
lots of meditation.
in the shower. on the 18. with the my kindergarten students.
a lot of boys in the after school program have been struggling to control certain emotions.
mainly anger.
i don't get upset often.
when i do, its usually because of similar reasons:
other people doing dumb shit that affects you.
i mean, that's going to happen.
but when people act completely oblivious.
like, you didn't see me standing here?
kids will be accused of pushing someone, claim it was an accident or insist that they didn't notice anything happened.
really?
then the issue is:
why aren't you paying attention to your surroundings?
all this is learned behavior.
people treat certain people like they matter.
others like they don't. like they don't even exist.
but then they exist when they have something people want.
anyway.
i've been trying to teach kindness.
maybe you love someone.
maybe they love someone else.
maybe you don't like being around someone.
they like being around you.
you can be kind to all these people without having to pretend.
if you love someone, you're going to be happy for their happiness.
if you don't like someone, you can still be respectful of the fact that they have an equal right to this earth.

sometimes.
i just breath in more oxygen than normal.
then blow it out.
i remind myself i cannot control everything.
not even my own emotions sometimes.
but i try to practice being mindful of this so that i can then remind myself to slow the fuck down.